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[her expression is blank, with a side of bitterness] I received a formal invitation to the memorial ceremony for the Ben Gardner crew.
Seven people still missing and they're ready to just close the book. Seven months is all you're worth? [she shakes her head] I won't go. I won't settle. [she glances down and takes a few breaths; looks at the camera] I'm not ready to give up on you, just yet. [there's a slight smile and she glances down again, as the baby has just kicked her, out of view] None of us are.
[timestamp about an hour later]
[she's clearly been crying, but the flush is clearing from her cheeks] If I don't go, though.. I should go for the families that did get closure, right? [she nods] I mean, that's the right thing to do. I can't believe I was being so selfish. [she shakes her head] It's one thing if there's no physical way to get there. I mean, shuttles work. But, my first thought should have been for the other families. [she makes a face] I need to go punch something.
[recording ends]
Seven people still missing and they're ready to just close the book. Seven months is all you're worth? [she shakes her head] I won't go. I won't settle. [she glances down and takes a few breaths; looks at the camera] I'm not ready to give up on you, just yet. [there's a slight smile and she glances down again, as the baby has just kicked her, out of view] None of us are.
[timestamp about an hour later]
[she's clearly been crying, but the flush is clearing from her cheeks] If I don't go, though.. I should go for the families that did get closure, right? [she nods] I mean, that's the right thing to do. I can't believe I was being so selfish. [she shakes her head] It's one thing if there's no physical way to get there. I mean, shuttles work. But, my first thought should have been for the other families. [she makes a face] I need to go punch something.
[recording ends]
